When I get tired in my sobriety, remembering that everything is temporary is critical, especially when my mind and body are exhausted from running in circles, wanting to be anywhere but here, and having to face my addiction right now. Getting tired in sobriety is a reminder that I’m getting lost in the mental illusion of time, that I need to let go of my incessant thinking, trying to change the past or control the future; trying to avoid feeling the pain and suffering that I continually recreate, trapped by what I already know in my limited, isolated mind. Instead, when I remember to stay aware of my temporary emotions in the present moment, I can dissolve my mental suffering with sober, nonjudgmental loving-kindness, to heal my past by understanding now what I didn’t understand then.

Learning the discipline of quieting my conditioned mind into a meditative state allows my mind and body to rest and heal, as the rejuvenating universal energy source of Love flows through me. My mindful awareness, in turn, uncovers the creativity of God Consciousness, of which “I am” a divine extension—my Higher Power. My true Self discovers that “quitting” is merely an illusion, a powerless thought of stopping the flow of Life energy—Love—that never dissipates but naturally transforms, overcoming any resistance with constant creativity.

So, when I get tired in my sobriety, I remember that my mind and body are exhausted from trying to think and physically will my way out of addiction, but, actually, I am trapped in reliving the past and projecting it into the illusion of a different future. I am learning to stay present in the moment to rest, heal, and uncover the creativity of my true Self, which is an extension of God Consciousness, as each ray of sunlight is an extension of the Sun. In doing so, I have discovered the truth that the duality of addiction and sobriety is a temporary illusion of time. There is no quitting, only the heartfelt creative transcendence of being—neither addicted nor sober—just silent being is enough, it is all that is required.

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